Sunday, March 20, 2011

Impatient

I am feeling overwhelmed by a lot of stressors, so I'm trying very hard to consciously change the focus of my thoughts from the negative (so fucking easy to get stuck in) to being present and remembering positive moments.

Some of this week's:

Sharing unexpected sunshine and peace on a warm concrete step with a mostly nonverbal client.

Watching the tips of the branches pinken and swell.  There are leaves in there.

Finding the first shoots of the bulbs I planted last year (daffodil, tulip, and iris).

Seeing a badass tough guy client help another one who is extremely physically ill.

Waking up to heavy wet snow that is melted in an hour, and imagining all the maple syrup that is coming.

A cup of hot coffee at exactly the right moment.

Irish whiskey buttercream.

I don't think it's a coincidence that so many of these moments involve being aware of seasons/the natural world.  Remembering plants' steady process of growing helps me connect with my own slow and steady processes, and know that it is a process, and be OK with that.

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